been a long time since i blogged.. been soo soo busy nowdays.. time is just passing by like that. and it's definitely not a good thing.. so.. haix.. i dont know.. been confused.. making decisions.. choices.. the best choice possible that hurts the least people. but i guess people are just selfish.. we are all selfish.. anywayz..
on the first week of the semester the very 1st day of school.. we meet because he go to the wrong class and i want to go overload.. he said it's so fated coz he actually suppose to be in class that time. and i was like so shocked to see him i thought we won't even meet cos uni is so so big and i havent even meet some of my frens from college since im in uni.. and then on saturday. me and some of my frens went clubbing.. and met allen there then he say zhu is there as well then point to a direction but i didn't bother. and i just went and dance2 n drink and then meet allen again then he say zhu keep looking for me. but i don't care he hav a gf and im clear of that. so i just want to keep the distance. and then suddenly when i went to the smoking place to accompany my fren smoke (i don smoke, lol.) we met zhu.. actualli i was there 1st and then he came.. then his frens like talk to my frens so that he got a chance to talk to me.. my frens said he did it on purpose. ask his frens talk to my frens so that he could talk to me.. but at that time i was talking to erm.. my current ex??.. on the phone. and then i ignored him cos i dont want to give him a wrong impression that i still like him o what.. but then his frens asked my frens to drink together. so we walk back down and buy drinks.. and then i was like drinking and then i went back to dance then he is like follow2 with his frens and then he keep like calling me and touch2 my shoulder. i know he want to talk to me but i ignored then he keep doing that and i turned around and he said he want to talk to me upstairs.. i was like OK.. then i pull one of my frens to accompany me.. then everyone come along in the end. and then at the staircase.. Geoff said.. he is not ur boyfriend anymore.. what for listen to him.. then i say to him i dont want to go up. then sharyn say he looked very hurt and every of my frens said they can see that he is hurt and that he still loved me.. but i told them impossible cos he got a gf. after that he ask me to millpoint to Mcd and everything every day.. and i told him i just want to be frens.. but he said he cant. then one day he suddenly kiss me and hug me.. im like so shock and i told him that it means he dont respect me and he dont respect his gf.. and i just want to be frens.. but he insist.. ( to be continued)

just the old saying. what you have you don't appreciate till it's gone.. and it's so true.
now i apprecite u more.. but.. oh wells.. i sure hope it won't be temporary like it used to be and i don't think it will be temporary. and i feel bad , guilty and everything to her.. i was like keep saying just go with her i don't want to spoil people's relationship. but he keep saying you didn't spoil anyone's relationship. i'm always urs. even when i'm with her i still think of you and love you a lot more then her and that i shuldn't let him go again cos this maybe our last chance.. i don't know.. maybe our relationship just win in that "quantity" or maybe not?? he said lots of things.. but then everyone's advice to me is like.. discouraging me to go back with him. argh. i don't know laa!! pusink3.
so now moved out to melissa's house dy.. and exam coming soon. totaly stressed.